True Happiness

In life, it seems like we're always wanting more. Whether it be more money, a bigger house, a nicer car, more kids, etc. Why is that the case? It's not a bad thing to want more kids or nicer things, but when are we happy with what we have?

Anyone can be happy with our own situation. For years my want for children has seemed hard. I suffered from depression and struggled with my weight. After my recent miscarriage, I realized something with the help from others around me. I haven't been truly happy with what I have. I have a wonderful child who is loving and forgiving. Through him I have learned and grown so much. I have been blessed with only one child, but that's more than others are blessed with. There are still women out there seeking a spouse or even one child. While listening to Conference this weekend I realized that we are only blessed with things when we're ready to learn and grow. We can't do that if we're angry at the world or at the Lord.

Life throws us curves that we don't expect. Through the miscarriage, I learned a lot about my health and body I didn't know for sure or had been simply assumptions. There are still some tests in process and more to learn about. Knowledge is power. If we are able to have more kids, great! If we're not that doesn't mean that I have less value as a woman. I have fulfilled my responsibilities in the task. Whatever the Lord has in store for me and us as a family, is what will happen. He knows me and what I need better than I do.

I'm truly grateful for the gospel in my life. I know that here on earth I can touch the lives of those around me and help them out. I am around children all the time and I can help their parents out in different ways. My hope is that after my time on this earth I may be able to touch and help more children. We can only do the best with what we have. I have a lot and couldn't ask for more. Thank you all for the love and support that you give to me.