Preparing for Change

I don't know that you can ever completely prepare for change.  I definitely wasn't ready for the change that is coming.  We are expecting baby #2.  I still can't believe it.  We found out on May 30th.  We announced after our first appointment on July 10th.  I am excited, but struggling at the same time.  I haven't been able to hold a lot of food down.  They just doubled up my meds.  I only threw up once yesterday and once today which is a drastic change.  I'm hoping that we can stay on top of it and figure it out.  I feel like our lives are going to turn upside down.  The last time I was pregnant was 9 years ago.  We tried for almost 8 years and now that it's here I do question why I wanted this.  I know that it'll definitely be worth it in the end.  I'm not complaining, I feel very blessed that we are able to have this opportunity.  We've prayed over the years about adopting or foster care but felt like they weren't the right options.  I do feel like it's like having our first all over again because it's been so long.  Brax is excited and really wants a sister.  We'll see what happens.

We are scheduled to have an ultrasound on September 11th.  Brax is going with us.  I have until then to decide whether or not we're going to find out what this child is.  Branden doesn't want to know and Brax does.  I'm undecided.  I figure we've waited this long I could wait another 5.5 months.  We'll see what I decide between now and then.  I'm currently 15 weeks along.  The baby is fine and it's heart is beating at approximately 160 bpm.  Brax went to the doctor with us this last Tuesday and was able to help the doctor find the heart beat.  He thought it was so cool!

In the mean time we are looking at purchasing baby items since we got rid of most of our stuff.  Like I said, it was unexpected.  I try to find neutral things just in case there's another one.  You never know.  We'll get on top of it all.  I do feel blessed and know everything is going to be fine.  I just need to hang in there while the nausea hangs with me.