I did get my biopsy results back. The diagnosis is Complex hyperplasia with (focal) atypia. Now you say, what is that? It is a precancer growing in the endometrium of the the uterus. I am going to tell you info, but it's how I understand it from the doctor. My results came back non-malignant, but the doctor said that they have a 25% false negative test result. He wants me to have it removed ASAP. The best way to do so is to have a D & C (Dilation and Curettage). I am going in on Halloween. Not the best of days to have it done, but it was the one that worked out best for my family in the fact we have a lot coming up over the next few months that I need to have all the strength and stamina I usually do. They say I should only be down 2 days tops. I do have restrictions for two weeks such as not lifting anything over 10 lbs., no bathing, no heavy exercise other than walking, etc. I think you get the idea. I'm so very grateful that they caught this now instead of having it be cancer and spreading. If that were to happen it can lead to hysterectomy and more evasive things to try and get rid of it then is a lot harder.
Once again, I'm a rare case. My doctor said I am only his 2nd case my age in 27 years. It is more common in women around age 50. He believes it is due to the fact I haven't had regular cycles over the past 7 years. Since I started having regular cycles after the loss of 20 lbs., he also made sure to let me know that my weight can cause it again and I need to keep it under control. All this was shocking news, but at the same time now I really think about what I do and eat because it can all be hazardous to my health if I let myself go again. It's just not worth it. I am still working at weight loss and I'll continue to work on it. I just hope that this gets rid of the precancer. I do have to go back in every 6 months following and get retested. I'm grateful for the miscarriage due to the fact we wouldn't have found this any other way.
I should still be able to get pregnant after the D & C and I really don't have anything that should cause problems, I just need to take it slow for 2 weeks. If you know me very well, it's going to be a challenge but I'm glad to get it over and done with soon.
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Shanelle Moving In
Shanelle moved in about a month ago. Brax loves having her here. He gets excited pretty much every time she comes home. She is really good to help out around the house. She helps with dishes and meals when necessary. I hope her and her friends feel welcome in our home. They did have a group date here one night and they made pizza. We went and played co-ed volleyball with the stake and let them have the house. She is working at Paradise Bakery and loving it there. I hope she has good success there and can get more hours. The food there is so very good!
We made home made french fries one night and Brax took a picture.
Easton's Baby Blessing
The second weekend in October we headed to Venice for Easton's baby blessing. It was a lot of fun getting ready for it because Shanelle and I were both making desserts. I made sugar cookies (chocolate and regular) and Shanelle made cupcakes. It was fun experimenting.
Branden and I worked on our sprinkling system there in Venice when we got there. It was freezing! I had a coat on and still froze. We got it done pretty quickly. We were able to spend time visiting with both families. I took Brax and Brinley to the pumpkin patch in Elsinore and got some BIG pumpkins, but I left my camera home so no photos available. They had fun even though it was sprinkling and cold. We had pizza with the Anderson clan that night and just visited. We also helped Tyler finish his Eagle Scout project. It was nice to spend time with both families while we were there.
The blessing day was very nice. I could tell Kincade was nervous, but he did a great job. Sacrament Meeting was very spiritual. The dinner turned out really well as well. We had fun and there was lots of good food. Cara's boy that was adopted by a family also was there with the rest of his family. It was so nice to see them.
After the dinner we went to Glenwood and our sister-in-law took photos of Brax so that we could get his baptismal invitations made. I'm so excited to see them. She does such a great job with photos. It was a fun weekend and we're glad we went.
Shanelle and Cara
Brax getting a drink
Shanelle's cupcake stand
The nieces and nephews
Branden and I worked on our sprinkling system there in Venice when we got there. It was freezing! I had a coat on and still froze. We got it done pretty quickly. We were able to spend time visiting with both families. I took Brax and Brinley to the pumpkin patch in Elsinore and got some BIG pumpkins, but I left my camera home so no photos available. They had fun even though it was sprinkling and cold. We had pizza with the Anderson clan that night and just visited. We also helped Tyler finish his Eagle Scout project. It was nice to spend time with both families while we were there.
The blessing day was very nice. I could tell Kincade was nervous, but he did a great job. Sacrament Meeting was very spiritual. The dinner turned out really well as well. We had fun and there was lots of good food. Cara's boy that was adopted by a family also was there with the rest of his family. It was so nice to see them.
After the dinner we went to Glenwood and our sister-in-law took photos of Brax so that we could get his baptismal invitations made. I'm so excited to see them. She does such a great job with photos. It was a fun weekend and we're glad we went.
Shanelle and Cara
Brax getting a drink
Shanelle's cupcake stand
The nieces and nephewsVarsity Scout Triathlon
The Varsity Scouts decided they wanted to do a sprint/mini sprint triathlon. Branden decided he was going to do it along with the boys. He trained very hard and September 24th was the big day. My sister, Shanelle, moved in with us and she came along to help out along with the Holmes family. Two boys and Branden did the sprint and two more boys and Brother Holmes did the mini sprint. I was so proud of all of them for finishing. I was so proud of Branden for all his hard work. He came in first and beat the boys by 10 minutes plus because the boys didn't run as far as they were supposed to. Everyone was shocked that he came in first, but like I said he trained extremely hard.
Sunday, October 2, 2011
True Happiness
In life, it seems like we're always wanting more. Whether it be more money, a bigger house, a nicer car, more kids, etc. Why is that the case? It's not a bad thing to want more kids or nicer things, but when are we happy with what we have?
Anyone can be happy with our own situation. For years my want for children has seemed hard. I suffered from depression and struggled with my weight. After my recent miscarriage, I realized something with the help from others around me. I haven't been truly happy with what I have. I have a wonderful child who is loving and forgiving. Through him I have learned and grown so much. I have been blessed with only one child, but that's more than others are blessed with. There are still women out there seeking a spouse or even one child. While listening to Conference this weekend I realized that we are only blessed with things when we're ready to learn and grow. We can't do that if we're angry at the world or at the Lord.
Life throws us curves that we don't expect. Through the miscarriage, I learned a lot about my health and body I didn't know for sure or had been simply assumptions. There are still some tests in process and more to learn about. Knowledge is power. If we are able to have more kids, great! If we're not that doesn't mean that I have less value as a woman. I have fulfilled my responsibilities in the task. Whatever the Lord has in store for me and us as a family, is what will happen. He knows me and what I need better than I do.
I'm truly grateful for the gospel in my life. I know that here on earth I can touch the lives of those around me and help them out. I am around children all the time and I can help their parents out in different ways. My hope is that after my time on this earth I may be able to touch and help more children. We can only do the best with what we have. I have a lot and couldn't ask for more. Thank you all for the love and support that you give to me.
Anyone can be happy with our own situation. For years my want for children has seemed hard. I suffered from depression and struggled with my weight. After my recent miscarriage, I realized something with the help from others around me. I haven't been truly happy with what I have. I have a wonderful child who is loving and forgiving. Through him I have learned and grown so much. I have been blessed with only one child, but that's more than others are blessed with. There are still women out there seeking a spouse or even one child. While listening to Conference this weekend I realized that we are only blessed with things when we're ready to learn and grow. We can't do that if we're angry at the world or at the Lord.
Life throws us curves that we don't expect. Through the miscarriage, I learned a lot about my health and body I didn't know for sure or had been simply assumptions. There are still some tests in process and more to learn about. Knowledge is power. If we are able to have more kids, great! If we're not that doesn't mean that I have less value as a woman. I have fulfilled my responsibilities in the task. Whatever the Lord has in store for me and us as a family, is what will happen. He knows me and what I need better than I do.
I'm truly grateful for the gospel in my life. I know that here on earth I can touch the lives of those around me and help them out. I am around children all the time and I can help their parents out in different ways. My hope is that after my time on this earth I may be able to touch and help more children. We can only do the best with what we have. I have a lot and couldn't ask for more. Thank you all for the love and support that you give to me.
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Information Overload
Who knew a miscarriage could be a blessing in disguise? I went to the Dr. a week ago due some way excessive bleeding. They believe it was a way early miscarriage. I had some tenderness so they decided to get an ultrasound of my uterus. We found out that I have a uterus that is tilted backwards and also is heart shaped (both abnormal). They don't have a definitive test saying that's a bad or good thing. They've seen both sides. They did say women with a heart shaped uterus usually have to have C-sections due to the fact that the baby can get caught on one side or the other and have problems. The technician said my ovaries had lots of cysts and asked if I had heard of PCOS. I told her I was diagnosed with it in September 2007 (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome). When she pulled up the photos of the ovaries, she put it in these terms: Most women have ovaries that look like chocolate chip cookies, a few spots here and there. Mine look like chocolate chunk cookies. It just looked like it had holes all over in them (that's how it looked). They also found some tissue in there that wasn't normal. I had a biopsy done and will get the results back in a few weeks. After I get the results back we're going to come up with a more aggressive plan of attack.
Why would this be a blessing in disguise? I didn't know any of this information before except for the fact that I had PCOS. I believed ignorance is bliss. I learned a lot today. As I've stated before, PCOS isn't curable but is treatable. They also say weight loss can help with the symptoms. It is a hot topic right now. They learn more about the disease each year. They now have The PCOS Workbook and The PCOS Diet Plan in book form. I'd love to get both for informational purposes and to help others because it's highly likely that one or both of my sisters could have the same problem. I want people to know and understand because it's a pretty common thing. I know quite a few women who have the same problems. I think I was wanting to make sure everything was okay after the miscarriage so my mind was open. I believe that's why it all happened right now. All the information I learned today can only help me in the future with our quest for more children. With my cycles being more regular and all the information learned, my chances are looking better than they ever have before.
I believe that things are brought into our lives in the time and season that we're more willing to look at change. I'm in that state right now. What seemed tragic a week ago now is a blessing in disguise. I have hope again and look forward to meeting with my doctor again next month.
Why would this be a blessing in disguise? I didn't know any of this information before except for the fact that I had PCOS. I believed ignorance is bliss. I learned a lot today. As I've stated before, PCOS isn't curable but is treatable. They also say weight loss can help with the symptoms. It is a hot topic right now. They learn more about the disease each year. They now have The PCOS Workbook and The PCOS Diet Plan in book form. I'd love to get both for informational purposes and to help others because it's highly likely that one or both of my sisters could have the same problem. I want people to know and understand because it's a pretty common thing. I know quite a few women who have the same problems. I think I was wanting to make sure everything was okay after the miscarriage so my mind was open. I believe that's why it all happened right now. All the information I learned today can only help me in the future with our quest for more children. With my cycles being more regular and all the information learned, my chances are looking better than they ever have before.
I believe that things are brought into our lives in the time and season that we're more willing to look at change. I'm in that state right now. What seemed tragic a week ago now is a blessing in disguise. I have hope again and look forward to meeting with my doctor again next month.
Friday, September 16, 2011
Comfort
In life we become comfortable in many different ways. It's like a pair of shoes that you break in and absolutely love. You wear them all over the place and then they get holes. You still wear them because they're what you know and love. The problem is when it rains or snows you get wet inside and can get cold all they way to the inside of your body. If we'd take the time to let change happen and get new shoes, we'd be better off.
Obviously I'm not talking about shoes. Not only with shoes, but everything else we get comfortable with or take the easy way out. It was easy to be heavy. It took little to no work and I didn't have to change anything. Every once in a while I decide to change. I have changed a lot this year. I have dropped just shy of 40 lbs. It's changed a lot. I love the way I feel, the way I look, and a lot of other things. I believe the change has really helped me grow into a better person.
With the rest of life, we go through ups and downs. Some of them can change our life completely. Others help us to grow just enough. When we're brought down to the complete bottom emotionally, physically, and mentally we grow the most. I've had a lot of those instances in my life. I think everyone has. At that point we have a decision. Do we let things get us down or do we have a stronger resolve? I've decided I'm not going to let things get me down. I'm going to just continue moving forward. If I let it get me down, it's just going to hurt me in the long run. All we can do is move forward one day at a time. Some days are harder than others, but it's those days we need to just have a little more faith and try harder the next day. I'm grateful for the knowledge I have of the gospel. I'm so happy to be a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I have a Heavenly Father and brother, Jesus Christ, who are always there for me. They know what I need to help me learn and grow. In all the hard and good times, they are there for me, helping. I have had harder times, but you know what, I'm stronger because of it.
Obviously I'm not talking about shoes. Not only with shoes, but everything else we get comfortable with or take the easy way out. It was easy to be heavy. It took little to no work and I didn't have to change anything. Every once in a while I decide to change. I have changed a lot this year. I have dropped just shy of 40 lbs. It's changed a lot. I love the way I feel, the way I look, and a lot of other things. I believe the change has really helped me grow into a better person.
With the rest of life, we go through ups and downs. Some of them can change our life completely. Others help us to grow just enough. When we're brought down to the complete bottom emotionally, physically, and mentally we grow the most. I've had a lot of those instances in my life. I think everyone has. At that point we have a decision. Do we let things get us down or do we have a stronger resolve? I've decided I'm not going to let things get me down. I'm going to just continue moving forward. If I let it get me down, it's just going to hurt me in the long run. All we can do is move forward one day at a time. Some days are harder than others, but it's those days we need to just have a little more faith and try harder the next day. I'm grateful for the knowledge I have of the gospel. I'm so happy to be a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I have a Heavenly Father and brother, Jesus Christ, who are always there for me. They know what I need to help me learn and grow. In all the hard and good times, they are there for me, helping. I have had harder times, but you know what, I'm stronger because of it.
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